I was walking to Sturt campus today, (and I always happen to think a lot during these walks to lectures...) and I realized why is it that most recently I feel very lonely, even amidst a whole group of friends.
It struck me that Adelaide is wayyy too small, and that perhaps I am a naturally introverted, anti-social person. The thing is, sometimes I like being alone. I like studying by myself, group study sessions are sometimes a waste of time I feel. But, I don't like being seen alone, especially by people I know. So now I have come to a stage where I know too many people in Adelaide, everywhere I go I will bump into friends/ acquaintances, and I don't like being seen alone by them, although I like being by myself. Ok, I hope someone understands what I've just written, or myself when I see it in the future. It was all fine in the past, when I first moved here. I didn't know many people then, and the place still afforded a sense of anonymity as I wandered around. Now, its just friends everywhere. I figure I need to belong in a bigger city, like NYC or places where people don't give a care of who you are. Or I could just stop feeling so self-conscious, and overthink stuff. Oh wellll
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