I think I am constantly digging a deeper hole for myself to fall into, getting bigger shoes than I can fill.

I have been breezing through this first half of the semester, not because I am constantly on top of my ball game, unlike last year. But because I am consciously blocking out what is to come. I think I have let myself become complacent. And I am treating Dr Paul Worly's words like a mantra now; not as a motivation for the future, but as an excuse for the present.

Have I already proven who I am in these 2 years? Shown my capability, my potential, this is me, kthxbye. Or is it something that I need to be consistent in, or else I might just lose the essence of who I really am. And then again, who am I? And who am I proving myself to?

I still have time, not much, but still sufficient, so don't worry. It's just a nagging feeling in my head that I am not living up to my own expectations that prompted this blog post. I've taken a long long hiatus from margaretinoz, and this post has a 180 turn of emotions compared to the last whee-exams-are-over-lets-get-drunk-at-noon post. (In the past, I would have first written a helloworld! I've-decided-to-return-to-the-blogging-sphere post, but now I have decided to just plunge back into the once familiar pool and see what goes. Is that a sign of me getting complacent/lazy or am I over reading it hmm...)

Anyways, the main point is: I need to get started on my assignment!!! Ahhhh!!!